Monday, October 17, 2011

Pregnancy Update - 30 weeks!

Baby is the size of: a head of cabbage

Symptoms: heartburn, fatigue

Maternity clothes? I am over jeans already. I have some leggings but not many things to go with them. Such a first world problem. Ha!

Sleep: sleeping pretty good. I even go many nights without waking for a potty break. I still like naps, but I also go some days with going to bed a little earlier and then getting stuff done during the day. Naps are hard to say no to, though.

Fun moment(s) this past week: Celebrating my sweet Bella's 4th birthday.

Movement: Still a lot of movements. I'm pretty sure I can feel her doing total flips in there. And, she likes to kick my bladder.

Food cravings: Arnold Palmer, still. Yum!

Gender & Name: Hallie

Weight gained: Next appt tomorrow. If it's over what I want it to be, I'll blame it on the fact that I switched doctor offices and it must be the new scales. It could not be the early bags of Halloween candy :)

Belly Button in or out? Still in.

What I am looking forward to: We are having a combined birthday party for the girls this weekend. Crossing my fingers for good weather!! :)

Reflections on the past week: Doing well. It's amazing how many times a day I get asked by strangers now about Hallie. "When is #3 due?" "What are you having this time?" "Wow, a Christmas baby." And it's just as amazing that by God's grace I can just answer the questions easily without going into details. Not that everyone needs to know anyway, I guess I just expected it to upset me a lot more. It pings my heart - but that's not hard to do because I'm wearing it on my sleeve right now. But overall, I'm ok with it. I mean, people are going to ask. And I am having a third daughter, and she is already apart of our family.

It's funny... as a mom and a not-so-good planner, I go to the grocery store wayyyyyy too much. Most times, I have two kids in tow. And 95% of the time there is screaming from Farrah and crys from Bella of getting her hair pulled. And when people look at me... pregnant... I feel like they feel sorry for me. I probably would. ha! But I just am on edge about it, because I for some reason expect someone to eventually say... "And you are having another one?!?" and for me to unload on them and tell them I wish I were going to have 3 perfectly healthy babies to tote around - screams and all! I don't know why this scenario goes on in my head all the time at Kroger, but it does. Maybe because I really do look like a crazy mom.
Besides being concerned about looking like a frazzled mom with screaming kids (for real... why do my kids go nuts in the grocery store?) I am doing well.

Today... I read an article through a Babycenter Group I am in. (Side note: Who would have known there is a whole group for "Carrying to Term Despite Poor or Fatal Diagnosis") It has been a good resource to just read other ladies going thru similar things. I haven't written on there yet, but I have been stalking :)
Anyways... there is a really good article called "Notes from a Dragon Mom" - you can read if you want. I thought it was pretty insightful. Chris and I were talking today about how our parenting style just with Bella and Farrah will or has already changed. We agreed that, for sure - things that used to seem "serious" in parenting just aren't as serious anymore. I was already one to probably "enjoy every second with your kids because they grow so fast"... but now I'm also not stressing as much about the future.


Julie Tiemann said...

Beautiful post, Katie. I can only imagine how all the questions must hurt, but you are handling it all with the most amazing grace and dignity. I respect you so much and I am learning so much from you as you bravely walk through this. All that to say, there is NO pressure to be perfect either - if you stumble, it will just confirm to the rest of us that you are in fact human and not an angel. :)

(P.S. Have you tried snacks in the grocery store? I put something small like goldfish in one of those cups with the lids that keep food from falling out. It makes them eat very slowly and buys me more time. :) )

Jill said...

Great post. Praying for you...can only imagine the emotions as you answer questions. And you so already have such a great attitude and appreciation for your girls, but I can only imagine that this will even increase it. I feel that way, totally different situation clearly, but I always say that the journey to have a baby for me has made me a different kind of parent than I'd be had I not had to struggle so much. Always love reading your heart on this journey.

Ashley T said...

Hi! I am a friend of Emily Parker's and blog stalk some her friends (when I have time!)...anyway, I read that same article and thought of you! I didn't want to send you the link in fear of overstepping a boundary. Life is certainly something to be celebrated every day for sure!

mckennah said...

What a powerful post and article. I love her parenting for now quote. Such conviction for me as I do tend to worry too much about things that I am sure are so trivial in the big picture. Although I do try to live this way with my mom. :)

Katie you are amazing and I am proud to be your friend and walk along side of you.

Meggie B said...

This is where I'm at in my pregnancy... a day shy of 30 weeks, but in 2013, pregnant with a little boy we've decided to name Broderick (brother) Cillian (Little Warrior) who has full trisomy 13. I just found your blog today and am kind of blown away how many of your posts voice my exact thoughts and feelings, all the way to not being excited about maternity clothes because the outcome wont be the same of other pregnancies. We have a 3 year old son who can't wait to be a big brother and it can be awful trying to just be happy and excited for him while knowing that his wishes won't be played out the way he's hoping. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I will keep reading forward but I just had to stop here and say something. I try to enjoy all the kicks and movements, they make me anxious to meet Brody....and I'm also anxious to just keep him where he's at since he seems so happy in there and safe.