Friday, February 24, 2012

The 24th - another anniversary

It's been 2 months since Hallie went to be with the Lord.
We miss her!! But I love that she feels like a part of my family - even if she's not presently with us. It's strange that I basically know everything there was to know about Hallie. But I'll never know more - of what she would have been, her little quirks, what she'd look like, what she'd grow to love. Oh how I long to see her again one day! But I just love her and I smile when I think about her. I don't always cry (although that happens, too) but thoughts of her are always under the surface. It's just a strange thing - losing a child. And strange that I had to prepare for that. I am just not a good communicator at what I am feeling and how do you even put words to something like this? But I do have comfort in knowing others just "get it" even though I wish none of us had to.

Today is the 24th. And we miss Hallie. And we continue to be thankful to ALL of you who have helped us. And continue to think about us.

Guess what? We're official! Thank you all SOOOOO much! I'm going to be able to bless so many through you all!!

Guess what else? We are surprising the girls and driving to Disney! They have no idea! We are so blessed to have friends who have a home there and are letting us stay. And... I'll get to turn 32 while in the happiest place on earth :)

Guess WHAT else? The reason I've been slow to blog is I've been working HARD at getting our house ready to put on the market. This was our plan this time last year. But we didn't want a big change while waiting on Hallie. So we put it on hold, and I'm so glad we did. But now... we are ready. Sort of! I've always thought of this place as just a "house" ... but now it's our "home!" Where I brought all three of my girls home. But we know this is what we are suppose to do, so we are going for it!
I'm going to miss this PINK room!!!
This is such a bright room... I wish it was always this clean and I loved being in there... ha!
Same with this room... isn't it funny how we get the house all perfect for selling it and just the way we like it? Then we move?
I promise... this is the cleanest it's ever been! Not that I'm complaining, I love it! But maybe I should take some shots to show you what it normally looks like... but if you're human, and you're a mom, you know and understand!

So... that is what we have and will be up to. Now that the house is listed... and I've spent HOURS touching up paint at naptime and bedtime (which is an awesome way to think - you aren't distracted and can just think uninterrupted!) I'm getting geared up to start some Hope From Hallie stuff. I have some ideas but I don't want to rush it. I want to make sure it's just right. But, you will get the details as soon as I figure them out.

Thank you so much for reading!! Thanks for loving us and our Hallie!


Anonymous said...

Saw this poem by edgar geust to all parents. Touching. Praying for your family and nonprofit(congrats).

Emily said...

Yay!!! So glad we got to see your home before you move! I lovvvvve it, just as cool as I imagined. You have great taste and I lovr that, like me, you dont fear color. ;) congrats on the non profit so so excited to hear your plans. I know I can get done funds raised down here but I wanted to wait until everything is in place ;) love you, enjoy disney and happy birthday!!!!

Sara Watkins said...

Your house is gorgeous!! I can't wait to hear more about the non-profit...I know you're doing great things with it. And I really can't wait to hear all about Disney. You're going to have such a great time =)

Jill said...

Come be my neighbor!! And so look forward to watching what God continues to do through Hallie's life through Hope for Hallie. That's so awesome. And I'm really glad you get to spend your birthday with Mickey and your sweet family. I know it will be full of so many fun moments!! I also know you so wish you could spend your birthday holding precious Hallie. Continuing to pray for you.

Amanda Jones said...

Your house is gorgeous, inside and :)

Kalee Howard said...

Absolutely LOVE your house!!!!

Julie Tiemann said...

Your. house. is. awesome. Seriously. I can't imagine giving that up! But y'all are once again trusting God with your future, right? :)

Can't wait to hear about Disney, and once again, let me know if you need any help with HFH! :)

Lisa Marcia said...

Cannot wait to see the great things that Hope from Hallie will do! :)